Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Simple Pleasures

Anyone who has a toddler will know how hard it is sometimes to get them to eat. Ethan started his 'starvation' diet when he was about maybe 18mths old. He just refused to eat anything other the Soho Nacho crackers. Joy. He would throw a fit when he couldn't have them. So after a few months of him not eating i finally thought that maybe if we weaned him off the crackers then he might eat some real food. He's a skinny little thing and i didn't want him getting sick or anything. I thought too that his behaviour might have something to do with all the artifical flavours etc he was eating.....nope, just normal apparently!
So anyway, we started the weaning process, i cut it down to only 2 Soho snacks between meals and if he didn't eat his food then he got nothing. He started eating a little more. Then i just went cold turkey and stopped buying them. He still didn't start eating much more then what he had been. A bit of fruit, toast and museli bars were his main diet.

Then, here's where the simple pleasure comes in, after christmas he decided he is hungry again!!!! YAY!!! Now he is eating everything! He will even eat meat and raw vegies - like carrot sticks and zucchini, grapes, apples, plums, he eats noodles and pizza! Its amazing.
I am so happy that he is eating again. He even gained a kilo (2lbs) since christmas! I'm not quite sure what a kid his age should weigh but i'm glad that he's putting on weight.

I feel relieved when he sits in his high chair and starts chowing down!

Sunday, January 29, 2006

Well i managed to do all my to-do list yesterday! I finished at 10.30pm but thats ok.
This is what i did:
  • vaccumed living room
  • sweep kitchen/dining floor
  • clean spilt pinapple juice off floor and train table! ick
  • wash dishes
  • wash 1 load of washing and hang to dry
  • took dry washing off line
  • clean bathroom just enough so that it wasn't embarassing for guests coming over
  • dusted
  • yoga - only 15 minutes though
  • folded a huge amount of clean laundry - didn't get it quite finished
  • made 9 smocks
  • cooked dinner and entertained my sis, bil and their 4 kids...oh and my mum.
  • prepared nursery lesson
  • general tidy up of the whole house

No wonder i was exhausted. I just want to go somewhere and die now....or have a really long sleep!

Friday, January 27, 2006

I never thought i would have trouble coping as a mum. I never thought it would be easy, that is just stupid but i always thought i would cope ok. I mean, everyone else seems to be ok, right?
Its coming up to 2 years since Ethan was born. And i'm finding out everyday that i am not coping. The older he gets the harder it is. Well maybe it was always hard but now the problems are different.

When he was born it was the sleeping issue. He wouldn't sleep well, he had to be rocked or nursed to sleep. So i would spend hours upon hours in the middle of the night rocking him in his pram. Sometimes he would wake up every 1 1/2 hours all throught the night.
The poor little tyke spent about the first 6 mths sleeping in his pram. Now he sees it and starts crying. No wonder. He never started sleeping through the night until he was over 1 yr. I want to slap those mothers who brag because their 6 wk old baby is sleeping through.He also screamed alot because he had horrible wind.

Now its the tantrums. His tantrums started at about 8mths ,much to our horror. So much for the 'terrible twos'. He pretty much hasn't stopped since then. The more indepentant he became the more tanties he would throw. He went through the phase that getting his nappy changed was like trying to pull teeth! Almost impossible. As soon as i picked him up he would start trying to head butt me, then if that didn't work(because i would dodge him) he would start slapping me in the face or biting me on the shoulder. Of course once i got him on his change table he would kick me several times in the stomach and struggle the whole time while i changed his nappy. Repeat this procedure about 4-5 times a day and you have one very annoyed mum. He has settled down in the last couple of weeks when it comes to his nappy changing. I am trying to toilet train him a bit, well, at least get him to tell me when he's done a poo. He actually, a couple of times, has grabbed my hand and taken me to the change table so i can change it! Hopefully the days of being beaten up by my toddler are over. He also bangs his head on the ground when he's upset. The other day he did it because we were out on the deck and i went inside to make him lunch. I hear a huge bang and lots of crying. I went out and he had this huge mark on his forehead. It was blood under the skin. He almost always has a bruise on there. I have tried to help him so that he wont do that, but obviously i know nothing because he still does it all the time.

My husband at present is in hospital, having had his appendix taken out today. So after spending 5 hours in Emergency last night, most of that time with a cranky, tired and sometimes screaming toddler i am ready to tear my hair out. There was a women in there with her 4 daughters waiting for hours. She didn't look frazzled at all!! And here i was just struggling with one! My mum and my husband were there with me and i still felt like i just can't cope!
What on earth is wrong with me?
My house is a mess and to be honest Ethan is so demanding that i find it hard to get everything i need to do everyday done and have decent 'me' time. I have a 'to do' list on my fridge. It has been there since i think wednesday, its now friday night (11.18pm according to my computer clock)and i have only 2 things crossed off it. They were all supposed to be done on wednesday.
Oh and tomorrow i have 13 smocks to make to be ready for sunday! Lucky me.
I think i just need to go into a small room and scream my lungs out. Maybe that would make me feel better.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Australia Day

Tomorrow is Australia Day. Its the day we celebrate being Australian.

If you know me at all you will know that i was not born in Australia. I was born in New Zealand. And although i have Australian parents there was a misunderstanding and i wasn't registered as such so i am actually a NZ citizen. I have lived here for 25 years and class myself as an Aussie even though i don't have that piece of paper that says i am and i can't vote. 14,000+ people will take the plunge and become Aussies tomorrow. I wish i was one of them.

Why i love Australia

Its beauty - it covers everything from beach to desert. I love everything! The mountains and the rainforests and the wide open space! Its just truely beautiful.

This pic was taken last year. It is the most easterly part of Australia, at Byron Bay. From this vantage point you can see whales and dolphins.

Its culture - we are a multicultural country. And as such alot of things were bought in to add to the mix and to add to the fun!

This pic is the only thing i could find that had something to do with culture! lol It's the Kuranda train from North Queensland. The Cairns/Kuranda area has a lot of Aboriginal touristy places. And as you can see the train is painted with Aboriginal paintings.

Its animals - although we have lots of dangerous 'i can kill you' animals like snakes, spiders, crocodiles and sharks we have lots of cute n' cuddly animals like kangaroos, koalas, platypus, wombats, bilbys, emus....ok they aren't all cute or cuddly but i still like them!

This was taken at Australia Zoo in 2003. I was about 5mths pregnant. While kangaroos are cute and you can pat them in the zoo they can attack you and cause all sorts of nasty injuries so please don't try and pat them in the wild!

Its Flora - we have some beautiful plants here. Gums trees are great! They provide shade and you can play music on their leaves, pretty cool! lol

This is a banksia flower.

Its people - I personally think Queensland people are more friendly then anyone else in Australia with Sydney people coming dead last! But real Australians are laid back, down to earth, hard working people, who only want to have a go. If you treat people with respect, they will treat you the same way. Of course there are always exceptions to the rule but i think they are being un -Australian!

This is my husband relaxing on South Stradbroke Island. Its a hard life huh?

I truely love Australia, and there isn't anywhere i would rather be! And hopefully soon i might even be a REAL Australian!

Saturday, January 21, 2006

There are times that i miss being single. You know when you've have enough and just want to be by yourself. I've had a few of those days lately but what i realised is that i didn't miss being single i just missed being in control.
My days seems very out of control. I can't control my husband, i can't control my son and sometimes i can't control my irritation that seems to be controlling me most of the time.
But with all that i have some wonderful moments in my life. This morning as i was lying in bed trying to drag myself out of sleep....it takes a while, i was jumped on my my bubba boy. He layed on top on me, with his face really close to mine and then planted a big fat kiss! And contined to kiss me ' mmmmmmmmmmmm ahhhhhhhhhhhhh' until i was laughing so hard that i couldn't take it anymore. He really is the most beautiful thing i have ever seen.
Don't ask me how the rest of the day is going.......it was all down hill from there................

Friday, January 20, 2006


As i was thinking of what i could write about today and as i was reading what others had written on my posts and as i was reading my friends blogs i realised that that is what i wanted to talk about today. Friends.

Growing up i only had a few friends. I was never a popular person, i guess that was because i was a bit reserved. What others would call shy. Though i have always hated that word and refused to use it when it came to describing my personality. I am not a shy person, i just sit back and assess the situation and comment if needed.
When i got to high school i had to make all new friends because noone i knew from Primary School was going to the same High School as me. It was tough but i soon found some friends, and it helped that my very BEST friend was there - my older sister! Chrissii is 2 years older then me, so even though i was in year 8 and she was a year 10er she still hung out with me and i hung out with her friends too on the occasion.
We moved after year 8 and when we went to our new school it was just us and we both had no friends. We quickly adapted however and enjoyed the rest of our school years. We are still best friends and i doubt nothing will ever change that.

After i finished school i tried to keep in touch with my friends but eventually one by one we fell out of touch. I was unemployed, lived at home, in the country and my sister had got married and moved away. I was pretty bummed. I was depressed and lonely.
Eventually i moved to live with my sister and her husband. Best thing i ever did!!! They lived in Canberra ACT and it was fantastic! I lived there for 4 years (3 with my sister). I made some great friends who i love dearly. I met my husband and moved back to QLD, in a town where i knew noone but my husband.
Back to being lonely. I still kept in touch with my Canberra friends but it just wasn't the same. Then i discovered this wonderful thing........

Internet forums.

Since i am an active member of my church and at the time i was pregnant with Ethan i found a forum of LDS members, mainly women and mums. It was fantastic. I got to talk to women of my faith about pregnancy and babies and about church. It was really helpful and i made a couple of friendships. I eventually left that board a joined a new private one. This has been the best thing ever!
I have managed to make a few friends in my new area but to be honest, i have much better friends online. I hope they don't mind me mentioning this. Since i'm sure they are the only ones who read my blog! lol
They have helped me i my life so much. They inspired me, they pick me up when i'm down, they encourage me when i'm tettering on the brink of breaking my diet. They give me suggestions when i need help with something and most of all they show love for someone they have not met in person. Most of these wonderful ladies live in the US. I have plans to visit them one day. Maybe i should have put that on my 'seven things to do before i die' list. ;)
They probably don't know how much they mean to me. I am serious when i say they are the very best friends i have ever had.

I love you girls!

Tuesday, January 17, 2006


I think i have been dieting all of my adult non-pregnant life. In all that time i have been successful twice in obtaining my goal. Its such a fantastic feeling to look in the mirror and like what you see. At the moment i don't.
I have 10kgs to lose all up but at the moment i am working on losing 5. I would love to be 5kgs lighter before i get pregnant again.
I have a subscription to a Slimming and Health magazine. Full of tips and recipes and exercises to lose your butt. I found a nice section on celebrity diets that apparently work. It was in the 'beach body' section and apparently i can lose 6kgs in 6 weeks.
There are 3 diets to choose from. The first one can make me look like J.Lo, the second like Angelina Jolie and the third like Liz Hurley. I chose the second plan 'The Grazing Diet' since it looked like the best one for me, though i'm hoping since Angelina does this diet that my fat will not be displaced to my lips. They are fine as they are thank you very much!

I can't stand diets that have weird food that i have to go out and buy ....like chickpeas and hommus and stone ground wheat. The theory behind The Grazing Diet is that i eat 6 small meals a day to keep my blood sugar level and so my body doesn't go into starvation mode. And the food plan is actually very sensible and i don't have to buy weird food. It also doesn't make me feel like my throat has been cut.
I'm on day 4 and although i cheated a bit yesterday i am doing good.
When i started i weighed in a 71kgs and this morning i was teetering between 69.5 and 70kgs but finally rested at 70....darn digital scales! lol
I am feeling optisitic that this is actually working though. Today when i went to have my 10am snack i wasn't even feeling hungry yet.....
I'll be looking terrific in no time!

Sunday, January 15, 2006

My husband Graham has two passions. Trains and photography. Luckily they go hand in hand. You can't go and see a train unless you take photos of it. Lots of photos. Black and white photos. Colour photos. Slides......don't get me started on the types of film one can use to take a photo of a train!
You would think it would be as simple as whipping the ol' digital out and snapping away. But nooooo, theres a whole science behind it that i am not about to go into. For two reasons. 1. I don't want to talk about it and 2. I have no idea what that science is. Graham tries to tell me but it goes way over my head.
Photography is not what i wanted to talk about today. I want to talk about trains.

Graham loves trains. Sometimes i think he loves them more then he loves me. He assures me he doesn't but when one wakes up to the tooting of a train horn and not to the sound of undying love being whispered into my ear, i have to wonder.
He has a train driving simulator on his laptop. So he's being driving trains for the last couple of nights now. Its fun but i would lose interesting after having one go. But that is because i am not passionate about trains.
He has a model railway downstairs which is kinda cool. I like miniture things so its ok....as long as its downstairs and i don't have to look at it everyday. We have a huge picture of a train on our living room wall. It is one he took and had enlarged at work. He also has the same photo as a background on his laptop.
We spend weekends chasing trains. Yes, chasing them. He finds out when steam trains are going to be running and then we chase them all over the place and take photos. Well he takes photos, i usually sit in the car bored stiff. Did i mention that we went to the train museum for my birthday last year? No, well that was great. For MY birthday we go to a train museum. Nice one darl!

And like father like son. Our son Ethan loves trains! It must be in the blood or something. He has a Thomas the Tank Engine set. Engines, track, tunnel, bridge, station. He still has a lot to get and i swear those are the only toys he's getting ever! He would rather play with a train then any other toy. His daddy just made him a 4ftx4ft train table! It takes up half his bedroom! lol But he loves it. He spends hours just playing. He also loves watching Thomas on tv. So he has 2 dvds and 2 videos that he has borrowed from my sister. Needless to say that is all that we watch. Graham now sings the songs around the house almost without thinking. Its kinda sad.

He also loves our weekend trips chasing trains. You should see his face light up when he sees a train! Its like christmas! Of course he can't say 'train' yet but he says 'toot toot' and 'Percy' which is just super cute.

I think it is great that he has such an interest in something even though the hours of being forced to play trains and watch Thomas is getting on my nerves and slowing driving me insane.

Friday, January 13, 2006

Seven things to do before i die:

  • attend a State of Origin where QLD wins....well i hope i have alot of time left ok..it could happen!!
  • pay off the damn credit card
  • buy a house
  • go to Paris
  • have more babies
  • more road trips with my dh and kids
  • learn the guitar

Seven things i cannot do:

  • tell a lie to someones face
  • remember the cords for the guitar! lol
  • justify paying someone money for something i can do myself
  • remember the last time i went swimming!
  • go a day without telling my husband i love him
  • get organised enough to scrapbook
  • i cannot ever be as smart as my husband

Seven things that attract me to my spouse (not necessarily in this order!):

  • His broad shoulders
  • His intelligence
  • His height
  • His sense of humour
  • His passion for his hobbies
  • The fact that he's 6 years older then me and i like older men ;)
  • He loves me....so i love him back

Seven things i say(or write) most often:

  • Ethaaaaaaaaaaaan!!!
  • Don't hit!
  • I love you
  • My name (write)
  • Do you need to sit on the potty?
  • Do you need snacks?
  • Ethan what are you doing?

Seven books i love:

  • Lord of the Rings
  • Much Ado About Nothing
  • Pride and Prejudice
  • The Book of Mormon
  • Jesus the Christ
  • The Glass Lake
  • The Copper Beech

Seven movies i could watch over and over again:

  • Bloodsport
  • The Castle
  • Yentl
  • Pride and Prejudice
  • Dirty Dancing
  • Lord of the Rings trilogy
  • The Dish

Seven people i want to join in:

ummmmm....not sure...whoever! lol

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

I just wanted to check in just so that i keep a regular thing going on here. But unfortunately i have bad news. I am 99.999999999999% sure i have miscarried. My dr seems to be holding onto some sliver of hope but i know i my heart that i am not pregnant anymore. I am still going through the process of trying to confirm it. Not sure why i don't just get another ulrasound but anyways.....i am going the blood testing route to check my hormone levels. Yesterday apparently they weren't really indicating anything. Figures. If my body needs to do something it usually does it the hardest way possible.

But i am feeling quite a peace with what has happened. Obviously quite sad and devestated at the same time but i'm optimistic that we will have a healthy baby soon.

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

A New Year

Yes, I know i'm 4 days late but better late then never, right? Well what to say about the new year....i'm really glad that its here! The past year has been horrible. My dad died in March from cancer, i had PND and finally got treatment in January after suffering for 11 mths. We have had sickness after sickness go through the family. We moved house and had trouble with the Real Estate. But on good news - my sister had a baby and i got pregnant! I swear those are the only 2 things that happened this year that can go in the good news catagory.
BUT that year is over and a new one has begun. Which brings me to New Years Resolutions. When i was in my late teens and early 20's my resolutions consited of 2 mains things......get a boyfriend/husband and lose weight (I was one of those reject girls who never got a boyfriend until she was 23, acutally i was a month off begin 24)
So those 2 resolutions never got accomplished until i was 23. That year i went from a size 16 to a 12 and was feeling pretty good, then i got a boyfriend and ultimately a husband (yes i married my first boyfriend).
So...now what other goals can i set for myself?

I still stuggles with my weight. I put on 19kgs when i was pregnant with my ds. After i had him and my weight settled down i was 7kgs overweight. I managed to lose 7 kgs and was almost down to size12 again. Then came some medication that made me gain weight no matter what i did. I swear i could of stopped eating and i'd still gain. So i gained 5kgs back before going off the meds. And then i got pregnant. Very planned and wonderful but still heavier then i would like to be. I'm only 5'3 so every kg is very noticable! So, my goal is just to eat healthier this pregnancy and to exercise...if summer ever leaves! Oh and then i'm joining the gym after i give birth.
My second goal is to spend more time teaching my ds. While TV is such a good babysitter i know it's not the best thing for him.
I'd also like to go on more dates with my husband. We hardly go out alone so i would like to do that more.
I'd like to spend more time improving myself and working on my spirituality

So those are my goals for this year. We will see how it goes!